I Miss You, I Need You, Without You I'm Stranded {Plumb}

The moving process has begun!

Or the moving-in process I should say. I finally got to see the inside of the house today which is beautiful! I am really liking the idea of living in a new, big house. My room is green, which is what I was planning on painting my new room anyways, so it works out perfectly! Beautiful landscaping/backyard/frontyard/neighborhood in general. We have a fireplace on the main level living room and in the basement! Bar system in the basement (hehe party anyone?), the bathroom Joshua and I will be sharing has two sinks (no longer will I be cleaning his spit out of the sink!), and mom and dad's bathroom has a jacuzzi bath (which I am SO hijacking!) - and I almost forgot about the BEAUTIFUL, bright, spacious kitchen-that-has-gas-stove-great-fridge-mounted-microwave-pretty-sink-and-window-with-great-view. I really couldn't have asked for anything else as far as new house goes. PLUS, inside scoop, we are getting new leather furniture and a flat screen for the basement. NOW who wants to come visit me from MD???

Breakfast this morning, today has been one of the worst days of the whole move. I am going stir crazy in this hotel! Mom and Dad are at the house supervising the movers' unpacking stuff, leaving Josh and I here. I didn't mind it for a while - I took a nice bath, uploaded pictures, took a nap. But I'm the type of person who can't stand to not have something to do! Laziness only takes me so far! I hate not feeling productive. I'm actually looking forward to school because work makes me feel better. I'm looking forward to start unpacking too. I have been researching picture frames and rugs and desks to accessorize my room with, which is fun, but I would rather be out there DOING things. What's worse is that my besties are unavailable for the day - Stephen is cleaning in preparation for the cleaners to come tomorrow (still doesn't make sense to me - you are cleaning FOR the cleaners??), Victoria is packing her things to prepare for the college move, and Tom has finally abandoned this planet in search of something better. This has left me to talk to some loser guys on facebook who I know, but have no interest in. This is what my life has come to.

Can I take a break and bitch about something else for a second - fashion magazines. Okay, Victoria knows how I feel about them, but I just need to clarify my feelings on this. Besides the fact that if I sit down and read more than half the magazine in one sitting my brain starts imitating oatmeal, the content of them is outrageous! I never really followed magazines so I won't pretend to know what I am talking about, but was there ever a time where a magazine wasn't something other than a load of ads? If not outright ads for a product or company, then the articles entitled "The Key to Perfect Skin" or "Seduce Your Man With These Easy Steps" are just lists of makeup, clothing and accessory products. They give the name of the product, its manufacturer, a five word description of what it is and what it does, and the price - maybe the website or store where you can find it. What is the point of reading that crap? Maybe it's important to girls who have money and want nothing more than to spend it on $20 lipgloss that you could get at the dollar tree, but I am poor and like to hold on to whatever money happens to come my way, so there is really no point for me to read the magazine, let alone buy it (yet here I am with a copy of Cosmo next to me). And don't even get me started on the double standards! On one page they will have a "Guys Tell All" article, where they interview men and find out that, oh, guys actually don't like it when you wear so much makeup that it rubs off on them if they brush your face - they like a natural looking you, not a barbie doll. But wait! Turn the page and there it is, "The Key to Perfect Skin!" there to give you a mile long list of cosmetics that will help you get "natual looking skin." Am I making my point?

Now that that's over (I have been bottling up my outrage over this for a while), we can return to my feelings :-). I'm struggling with the whole boy thing. People keep comforting me with "oh but there are so many cute boys here/there" (which I don't mind, just using it as an example), and yes there has been a couple cars packed with guys who have slowed down in a parking lot just to check me out - but I really don't care at this point. I am not interested in guys, let alone getting a boyfriend. I mean, let me clarify, I'm a teenage girl and there is nothing teenage girls want more than a cute boyfriend. So yes, I do want a boyfriend, but I am not preoccupied with looking for one, and I'm really not interested in checking guys out at this point. In reality, I miss Edgar a lot, even though I really don't think he misses me at all. It's nearly impossible to get in contact with him because his phone has been disconnected for goodness knows how much longer, and he is never online. So how am I to know if he misses me or not. And he has a player mentality - he can bounce back quickly from a crush. But the point is I miss him and not being able to get in contact with him is depressing.

A much happier note - Victoria, Stephen and I figured out how to do video chat! It really helps me a lot, its as if we are all hanging out together, we were watching TV together for an hour last night. Now I don't know how long it will be (or even if there will be a problem) until I have internet after I move into my house (tomorrow), because I know we don't have wireles here yet. Hopefully everything will be fast!