The Postcard Reads 'Wish You Were Here' But I'd Rather Wish I Was There {Rise Against}

I find it more difficult to blog on a daily basis because day to day nothing changes too much.
There is usually some stressful errand or another to run, then there is a lot of downtime at home and I end up either sitting online talking to friends or reading/watching movies. Feelings fluctuate but they are always the same; I'm alright and sometimes even optimistic when I am out doing things, but afterwards, at home, I get depressed and discouraged again.

But things may change soon, for the better. I spent a few hours at State Farm Park (specifically just lounging on the lazy river) with my friend Erica today. She and I discussed the local music scene, with coffeehouses and shows every weekend, and she has invited me to join her whenever I want. Then there is Fuel - a young adult group at the church - that I am probably going to at least try out and see if I like it. With church things I usually never want to go, but once I do I have a great time. So I will force myself to go this weekend.

I'm not sure how I feel about going to Fuel though, in general. I mean I want to go for the social aspect of it, but I'm still not on a comfortable level with God. I don't know if I want to go to something that I don't believe in or am unsure about (and I'm sure my family will encourage me to go because maybe it will take me back to the "right path," but I'm still not sure if I'm interested). Whatever, we will figure it out, I will go and decide after if I want to go back or not.

I finished reading Swimsuit by James Patterson in two days - it was that good (Victoria you were right, better than an orgasm). It was a story about a serial killer working for an organization, killing people and videotaping it for sale - told in the perspective of about 6 different characters. I also watched Disturbia with Shia LeBeuf last night (as in, he was in the movie, not with me while I was watching the movie). I found it to be fun, that is how I would describe it. I enjoyed watching it for the first time, because it was thrilling trying to figure out what would happen next. But looking back on it, it was a dumb, predictable plot, the twists and turns were a little outrageous, and quite honestly, Shia LeBeuf is not that attractive at all. I will never watch it again, but I had white knuckles while watching it last night.
So now after reading Swimsuit and watching Disturbia my brain is causing me to see serial killers around every corner on my evening walks :-P (and I have yet to watch Sweeny Todd - tomorrow nights flick)

A short blog to sum up a few very uneventful and depressing days.

Tom, Stephen, Victoria I love you and think about you always!